To start with, it was a huge distraction to m
e. My grades were dismal this semester [C+, C, C, C-, F]. I was dumb and could have done more, but I didn't. The only thing I can do about that now is do better in the future... and course forgiveness.
Next, it was bad for me because it enabled me to be lazy. I was so lazy this semester. There are always people at ΑΓΩ, so there
is no "need" to leave to socialize. But there is not always necessarily something going on. So most of the semester I spent just sitting around at ΑΓΩ waiting for people to come around, who, when they got there, would sit around and wait for more people to come around. It's a vicious cycle. This time just sitting around with people could have been used for so much, but generally wasn't. Most of the time we would just sit around, talk about dumb things, goof off, or watch TV.
Basically my feelings about it are
that it was not all it was cracked up to be. Granted that is my fault. Living at ΑΓΩ is good for some people, but I am not one of them. I was lazy and because I sat around at ΑΓΩ most of the semester, I neglected many other friends who did not come around ΑΓΩ.
But like I said, I moved home two weeks ago, and it has been nice. I haven't even fully moved back in yet. Also, it has become apparent who I really got close with this semester. Out in El Cajon, I am fairly removed from most people and social activities so anyone who wants to talk to me or see me must go out of their way to do so. I have only really hung out with a handful of the people I spent many hours at ΑΓΩ with. And that's ok with me.
So, my conclusion is that I enjoyed the semester, but I do not think I would live at ΑΓΩ again. It's just not healthy for me.
I have enjoyed these past two weeks though. I have been taking it easy, just relaxing , catching up with people, and all that jazz. M
y time of relaxing is almost over though.
In about 4 days, staff training week at Indian Hills is starting up again. I am super excited. I was reading my old journals last night and saw just how much I have changed over the past 2 years. As I was reading, I was getting flashbacks of the past two summers. It was a reminder of why I love working there. I can't wait.
